Sometimes you just have to play the Happy Song really loud and dance.
I was feeling kinda sad the last couple days. One reason is the end of the book study I have been involved in.
First, I have to go backtrack a little bit. For the last few years I have been working in remote communities in Northern Canada. It was good, but it was isolated. For an introvert like me that's not a huge deal, but I did feel spiritually dry and somewhat lonely some times. I tried to make an effort to go to church or see some friends on my time off in the south, but it was rare. Several months ago I took a new job with a different company which allows me to actually live in the place I call home. It lets me be involved with things I couldn't be involved with while working in the north. Church is awesome. I never appreciated how much it means to me or how my life with Jesus is dramatically enhanced through it. And I am starting to appreciate people. For too long everyone was a stranger to me, but now I actually have time to spend with people. I didn't realize what I was missing out on until I came back south and saw all the relationships and friends everyone seems to have. It blew me away because that is something I have not had for a very long time.
The book study I have been a part of the last 6 weeks was the first thing I have been involved with in years. It was a time of learning and sharing, but it also contained social elements that I haven't experienced in quite a while. It was the place I first started connecting with people in the church. It holds a special place in my life because of what it became to me. Now that it's over I feel a little sad. It was a good place for me to be. I never realized how alone I had let myself become up north, until I returned to the south and experienced what gathering with other Christians could be like. This study group helped me a lot, simply by allowing me to socialize with people on a regular basis, which is not something I do too often. I will miss it.
Now is not the time to be sad though. One chapter may be ending but hopefully a new one is beginning with C&C. It's a new opportunity for me. I hope it will allow me to continue my growth, closer to God and closer to people. I pray that I will make friends. It's been a while since I could say I've made true friends.
And tonight I felt like playing the Happy Song and dancing. So I did. You should too.
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