Sunday, December 18, 2011

Bears

Two and a half years ago I could have been eaten by a bear. Here's the story.

For the last six years, excluding 2011, I worked in Northern Canada as, what some might describe, a bush pilot. It was definitely an interesting time, and I have had experiences and seen things most people on this planet can only imagine.  I've seen northern lights so big and bright they fill the sky and light up the night.  I've seen the world's most northern active sand dunes.  I've seen clouds of black flies that block out the sun. I've seen lake trout and walleye bigger than a kindergardener. I've seen marmots, beavers, caribou, foxes, wolves, ptarmigans, greyling, and bears. I've discovered waterfalls and named previously unknown islands.

One spring day I had a charter to Charlotte River. Charlotte River is located just west of Uranium City on the northern shores of Lake Athabasca. It is a private runway used by a power generation company to have access to three hydro-electric dams they operate which power most of northern Saskatchewan. My co-pilot and I were to hold there for an hour while our passengers performed some maintenance and we would be on our way.

The terrain in this area is quite varied and presents a lot of opportunities for exploring and picture taking. On the south side of the lake are the Athabasca Sand Dunes. They are Canada's largest desert. To the north is the Canadian Shield, covered with waterfalls, rivers, lakes, cliffs and forests. This particular runway ran parallel to a river emptying into Lake Athabasca, in a valley nestled between some very steep hills. Next to the runway was a thick row of trees, and next to the trees was a single dirt road which ran upstream to the dams.  

Seeing as we had an hour to kill, my co-pilot and I decided to wander up the road and see what we could see. When our passengers where ready to leave they would have to drive back down that lone road and we could catch a ride with them back to the plane. As we started to walk around the bend in the road, hidden by the trees, my co-pilot remembered he had his camera on him and had never taken any pictures of the lake. Instead of walking down the road he wanted to go back to the shore and take some pictures. We turned around and went in the other direction. I took a picture of him in front of our plane with the bay in the background. Then we went down to the shore and poked around for a bit. A short time later our passengers returned. They asked us if we saw the bears on the road. We were a bit surprised at their question. Apparently just around the bend, behind the row of trees, was a mother bear and her two cubs. Now, I'm no Dwight Schrute, but I know enough to avoid a mother bear when she has cubs in tow. These bears were hanging around, just on the other side of the trees from us all morning, and we were blissfully unaware. As we taxied down the gravel runway, sure enough, the bears emerged from the trees and watched us from the edge of the tree line as we flew away.

If it hadn't been for my co-pilot's camera and his desire to take some pictures of the lake there's a very good chance we would have run into the bears on the road, and who knows what may have happened then. Here's the picture that just may have saved my life.




Thursday, December 15, 2011

Christmas

I have a  lot of thoughts on Christmas.

This is just one of them.

I have decided to do something for Christmas that is a little unusual.

I am not buying any presents for anyone.

Yep, I just said that. It makes everything so much easier.  There's no stress involved with shopping in the madness, or driving in the madness, or trying to find parking in the madness, or making sure I haven't forgotten anyone. I will have no crazy bills in the new year as a result of a buying binge.

I didn't think my decision would be so shocking, but as I shared my decision with different people, I realized that it is difficult for some to comprehend a presentless Christmas. Their reactions have intrigued me.

Some thought I meant I just wasn't buying presents for co-workers or people outside my family.
Some thought I would be donating to charities in the names of those I would buy normally have bought presents for.
Some thought I am just a grinch.

Here's my reasoning...

Of the people in my life that tradition would dictate I should buy for, no one needs anything.  Most of the presents given at Christmas time are not really needed.  They end up at next year's garage sale, or in storage somewhere.

Of the actual useful items that could be given, the recipient probably doesn't actually want it, or they would have bought it for themselves already.

The idea of giving to charity in lieu of presents is probably closer to the true meaning of Christmas. I do give to charities as much as I can, both time and money, but not because it's Christmas.  For me, giving happens all year round.

Of all my memories of Christmas presents growing up, only one still stands out to me. (My nintendo when I was 9.)  Most I can't even remember. And of the ones I do remember, most were not really needed or wanted, and ceased to be used shortly after Christmas. I don't want to contribute to the commercialization and materialism that Christmas is known for. The things I do remember are the people, not the things.

So here's to you, readers, hoping you have memorable people hanging around you this season.

Merry Christmas.

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Preview

Hello Blog

It's been a while.  I've missed you.  I've been so busy I've neglected you and I'm sorry.  I'll be back, soon.

Here's what I'm working on:

Thoughts on Prayer
What does God want from me?
The time I was almost eaten by a bear
The one thing I'm most uncomfortable talking about

I hope that keeps you interested.

See you shortly.  I just need to get a few things done before I run out of time.



Saturday, November 26, 2011

Rest

Through a series of scheduling anomalies, days off, days on call and a company Christmas party I have just had 6 days of nothing to do.  No work.  No work related items.  No side business duties.  Anything I did, I did because I was free to do it, not because I had to do it.

I never realized how much I needed to rest until my days off began.  I slept for 12 hours.  I never, ever, ever sleep that long.  And it was good.  I didn't realize how exhausted I was until I was able to relieve myself of all the expectations placed on me by my responsibilities in life.  Before my time off I don't think I would have said I was tired or needed a break, but that's because I couldn't see outside my circumstances.  I didn't know that there was something I was missing because I didn't know what I didn't know.

Jesus said, "Come to Me all who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest."

I don't believe He was speaking of a physical burden so much as a spiritual burden.  We all carry this burden with us, whether we know it or not. Some people have experienced this rest.  Other's have no idea they are carrying a burden.  They can't comprehend this abundant life Jesus brings because they haven't experienced it yet.  It's like a catch 22.  You won't know what it's like until you know what it's like.

This physical rest reminded me of the spiritual rest Jesus brings and I just thought I would sit back and think about it for a while.  I'm thankful that I have received it and hopeful that others will too.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Christian Music

If you ever said to yourself, "The Dove Awards don't have enough hard rock, screaming, or Brian Head Welch from Korn," then this is for you.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

What Do I Want?

I tend to be very intentional with the things I say and do.  I won't ask how you're doing unless I sincerely want to know.  I don't buy the latest gadgets and doo-dads simply to keep up with the Jonses.  When I go to a store it is to buy something I need, not to "shop".  When I go to church, C&C, a concert, or to get groceries, I am very intentional about my reasons for going.

But life... life just seems to happen.   I can't say I've been as intentional with my life as much as I have with the things in my life.  I want to change that.  Rather than sit back and let life happen to me, I want to happen to life.

So what do I want?  That's what I asked myself.  That's the starting point.  If you don't have a goal, you'll never achieve it.  If you don't have a destination, you'll never arrive.  I've been somewhat directionless for most of my life so I took a little time to sit back and ask myself what do I really want out of life.  I made a list.  Here's what popped out of my discussion with myself.

-Family (wife and kids)
-House (with a yard for the kids and a garage for the car)
-Car
-Church (family of believers)
-God
-Fun
-No stress
-Roots in a community
-Friends
-Free Time

Good.  That's a start.  The next question is, "How"?

And that's basically where I am at right now.

The decisions I make will be to intentionally lead me in this direction.  For instance, I am fortunate enough to work in an industry that allows me to work anywhere in the world.  Without exaggeration, I could be living in Toronto, Vancouver, New York or Los Angeles within a month.  Or, if I wanted more of a change, I could go to France, Hong Kong, Australia, Antarctic or the United Arab Emirates.  However, will this help me develop roots in a community, develop friends, have a family, be stress free?  Probably not.  It would be fun but I don't think it leads to my other goals in life. So, right now, I have no plans to live with the penguins.

But that's good.  At least I can cross off "living with Penguins" from the list.  I've already narrowed my focus.

Stay tuned.  I think some other changes are on the way.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Down

Have you ever felt a little down in the dumps?

Right now there is a big thing, a medium thing, and a lot of little things that have me feeling down.

First, a guy I used to work with died in an accident.  I didn't know him too well, but I've known him for five years.  He's only a few years older than me.  It was a shock.  There are few people I know who I would describe as indestructible, but this guy seemed to be one of them.  I'm not in mourning because we were never really close but I am in shock.  Life seems so much more fragile now.  I have noticed I haven't been as up as I usually am.

I have a family member in an extremely stressful situation.  It's something that I can't really help resolve which frustrates me.  As a guy, I want to fix things, but all I can do right now is watch from a distance.  It is so frustrating watching my family member become so frustrated, heading for a self induced fall and not doing what it takes to make the situation better.

Work has become busier.  Longer shifts.  More awkward shifts.  Less time at home.  Less time for the little things in life I need to do.  I've missed church because of work.  I've missed youthgroup because of work.  I've missed C&C for 2 weeks because of work and now I'm going to miss tomorrow night as well.  I was supposed to help with worship.  I've been practicing all week and now I feel like something important to me is unavailable to me because of work.

My pastor just resigned.

My lawn was vandalized.

All these things seem to build on each other.  Taken bit by bit, I can deal with them.  But when they all happen at the same time I start to feel down.

Looking at what I've just written I think the common element in everything is the loss of control.  They are things that have happened beyond my control, that I want to change but can't.  And this has left me feeling kind of down.

Right now I'm sitting here wondering what to do.  Maybe nothing.  Maybe pray, I suppose.

Lord, please help.  Amen.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Busy

There has been a common thread weaving its way through many of my posts over the last 8 months or so.  Busy.  I see myself mentioning that word time and time again.  Even when I don't say that word it is definitely implied by the schedules I lay out or the infrequency of my posts.

So, I'm going to do something about it.

Entry to be continued...  (cuz I'm too busy to actually finish this up right now.)

...I'm back

In my old life I never had any extra-curriculars outside work and sometimes church (when I wasn't working).  In my new life there is work, church, C&C, worship practice for church and C&C, youth group, Sunday school and small group.  I also tend to be the grocery and gas guy as well as taking care of all the little day to day things around the house like minor repairs and bills and whatnot.  And after all that is done, I have my little side business that soaks up free time like a sponge.

The easy thing to do would be to simply cut things out of my schedule.  However I like the things I do.  To cut them out would solve my time issue but create new issues.  I suppose I can delegate a few things.  Unfortunately the person I would delegate some things to is busier than I am at the moment.  Those things will have to wait a month or so.  Next, I can pay someone to do the minor things around the house and work that I don't actually have to do.  In the battle of Time verses Money I am at a point in my life where I realize that time is more valuable.  Ok.  So far, so good.  I have been working on my efficiency in the things I need to do.  I co-ordinate my outings to get 3 or 4 things done at a time instead of staggering them throughout the day or week and losing a bunch of time for travel alone.

And I know I have time wasters in my life that I can cut back on.  The big one for me is news aggregates online.  I'm a bit of a news and political junkie and I can lose myself online for hours catching up on what is happening in the world.  So, I will limit my time online.  That will be a huge time saver (I say to myself as I blog online).  Video games used to be a huge time investment for me as well but I sold everything I had before Christmas.  That has definitely made a difference.


This is good.  I think this will help.
Any other suggestions?

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Randoms

-Work has doubled night shifts on Tuesdays and Thursdays.  Those are the 2 nights I want off the most.  Through trades it is possible to get earlier shifts but it will create a lot of favours I will owe people in the future.  It may come to the point where I will have to choose between Tuesdays and Thursdays.  :(

-I'm not the kind of person that finds himself missing people.  However, I'm finding myself missing people.  Is this a good thing?  I don't know what to do about it.

-I don't journal and haven't blogged as often as I used to, or want to.  Work and life are incredibly busy.  I am going to focus my time on efficiency in hopes of having more free time to do the things that help me rest and recharge.

-I would like to get a dog.  My schedule disagrees.

-I wanted to get my motorbike licence this Summer.  I'll try next year.

-I'm scheduled to start teaching Sunday School at church soon.

-I haven't made a genuine meal in a long time.  It's been all boxes, cans, and microwaves.  I want to change that.