I am a Seed

I am still sad.
I haven't been sleeping well at all.
I feel much like I did 6 weeks ago.
I am a deeply emotional personal, on the inside. I suppose writing is one of the ways to bring my emotions out. There's so much I want to say, and so much I probably shouldn't. It's difficult to walk that line. I don't want to hurt anyone. I have a backlog of thoughts and feelings from the last few months that I may touch up and share later on.
I feel like a decision has been forced on me against my will.
I have no say.
I feel hopeless.
I don't have peace.